In a lifestyle funk.
What the hell am I doing with my life?
I’m twenty-four years old with a partial college education. I was a junior at University of Missouri with an emphasis in psychology and sociology (double majoring it) and working on a minor in art history. Since I was paying for my college myself the money went dry and I had to work so that I can eventually go back.
But now what am I going to do? No one will hire an exceptionally smart young (gorgeous) woman without a degree of some kind. But what degree do I want now…? When I was younger I wanted to help people. Now I want money and I hate people (see how much my job has jaded me). Do I want money? Power? Personal gratification? If I go back to college I don’t know what I want to major in. I don’t know what I want to do with my life now. I want to move (eventually) back to St. Louis, but the job market out there is even more difficult than the one here in Columbia.
Some of my illustrious co-workers said that I can hustle and sell and manipulate (currently unsure if that is a good thing or not). Maybe marketing, maybe business, I just don’t know.
I am currently working on my resume. I am scared of new places and it takes me a while to adjust. I am loyal to my stupid worthless job here (in November it will be three years). Where do I want to work? When do I want to go back to school? Why am I having a mid-life crisis at twenty-four?
Calm
Calm down
Relax
Deep breath
Breathe
Breathe
Hmmmmmm…..
posted by FantasticAlice @ 9:15 AM
11 Comments:
And to boot.
My brother has two children, makes twice more an hour than I do, he turned 20 in July and is currently buying a house.
And what am I doing again?
we have "mid life" crisis throughout our whole lives. Im 37 with kids and moving from Las Vegas back home...moments of indecision. Figuring out what u want to do with yr life is a hard call, it'll come to u. Sometimes what we "want" and what we can realistically(financially)do are two completly differnt things. Just have to find the ground somewhere in the middle and work with whatcha got. damnit. Life can be so difficult at times!
Nothing in life is easy, making a decision about what you want to do with the rest of your life is hard. You still young find something that makes you happy and go for it! Your happiness is what counts and being loyal to a company, think about this if the company want to save money and get rid of you would it think twice about it?
hey I can give ya a full time job psycho analaizing me... pay sucks though
Romey
right now I think that if someone traded me chickens for services rendered I would be doing decent.
At least I would have dinner.
its all about the priorities we choose for ourselves. It must be time for you to assess those priorities alice,thats all, nothing deep or complicated. You seem to have a love/hate relationship with your job, thats not unusual. You say your jaded but I don't believe that, I think your just frustrated. Your a compassionate caring individual who needs to make a new map of where she is going.
As always Dusty you are so helpful in the situations.
I do seem to do for others before myself. It is something I have always done and It will be hard to start putting myself first.
Priorities... good idea... I will make myself a list.
And as always, dearest Dusty, thanks for the words of encouragement! Your da-bomb!
dont make me blush chick..makes my new dental work hurt..
Just don't do something you really love because you will wind up not wanting to do it when you get home. I do think that, if promotion is an idea for you, why not work in advertising books. You hare highly literate and could find a passion for getting good books promoted properly. B) Just a thought. Otherwise, I'd say come to Vegas. hahaha We need better looking cocktail waitresses. B)
Don't think of your partial degree as useless. Just because you don't think you want to go into social sciences doesn't mean a psych degree won't help you out. You could use it to go into human resources and decide who to hire or fire all day or come up with ideas on how to make a company more employee friendly. LOTS of marketing specialists have psych backgrounds because knowing about the psychology of different kinds of people makes it easier to sell to people. You could also do research and not have to deal with people hardly at all, just rats or whatnot. Lots of options Alice, for a smart cookie like you. Don't toss that chunk of degree, I'd go ahead and get it even if you have to get a loan for it. If you don't have a lot of income you can qualify for grants or a federal loan at a really great rate that doesn't accrue interest while you are in school, and you don't have to start paying it back till 6 months after you get out of school. The payments on those loans is really small, and the interest rate is good too. Not that you should go crazy with them or not be careful, but it's a thought.
I'm in a similar boat, only I called it the one-quarter life crisis. :-) 27 years old... just a few quarters of college nine years ago... dead end job...
I decided that at any cost I would go back to school, even if it meant borrowing every last penny to do so. Sallie Mae is most likely going to own my ass, but I couldn't be happier with the decision.
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