Alice's Secret

Did you ever have a secret that was just really hard to tell?

Only a select few know about it?

I have a secret. I can't get pregnant.

My brother knows. My parents don't. I don't want my parents to know. My co-workers don't know it. I have tried to convince myself for years that I don't want kids just so I can convince myself that kids aren't important to me. Now my biological clock is ticking away. My boyfriend doesn't know what to do to console me. I can't stop crying for the last week now about it. I see people with kids who probably shouldn't have any... and I should have kids but can't.

I like trying to think that I am a strong person and that this shouldn't bother me... I'm losing the battle.

I am not financially secure enough to adopt (although I would).

All I can say is that these two will be my everything, they will never lack for anything from me (but it hurts so bad whenever I am around them):






What Kurt has said to make Alice feel so much better:
I hope you won't let this define you or your life. Although this particular aspect of life is not on your plate, there are many important things ahead for you.
I think we are here to create beauty. This can take many forms, from a smile given (or created), a song written, advice that makes a difference or help supplied. The ripples from your actions will travel far beyond the horizon in front of you; you choose whether they are for good (beauty) or evil (ugly, nastiness).
Take heart from all the people that are encouraging you. We are praying in our own ways. Peace.