ACK.
Well My morning sucks ass already. The boy-toy and I got into an argument and I don’t even know why. Basically, it boils down to the fact that he believes me to be an inane idiot a large percentage of a time and I just think he is obtusely moronic.
And we are at a stand still.
Regardless he is refusing to accept my phone calls on his cell and refusing to call me (even thought I asked him nicely via text… “when you are done being pissy and talking about me to your buddies will you call me please.”
Well, maybe not that nice.
Crap.
Alice is about ready to give up all her responsiblities and just up and leave everything. Alice is not having a good day. Alice wants get away from all the little annoyances of the world. Alice is talking in third person (again). Alice wants to just up and leave everything and start a fresh new life. However, the probability of Alice doing this is Zilch to None because she doesn't like no knowing every finite detail of how to just escape.
posted by FantasticAlice @ 6:56 AM
16 Comments:
Arf?
That sucks- I hate when that happens, especially when you aren't even sure what the fight was about.
I just can't be that damn spontaneous. I have committments, I have materialistic goods (what ever that is worth) that I cherish, I have a dog, and a cat. But I just want to start over. I have such low self esteem I tend to think that I can rebuild my self image by changing everyones opinion of myself.... and for me that seems to me starting over.
Ah. Fuck.
I am becoming more and more depressed as the day goes by.
I have no friends.
That blows.
Why?
Because every person I have met here is manipulative, egotistical, racist, chauvanistic, hateful, untruthful, or addicts.
Boy-toy is my best friend, and even then he isn't much of one depending on the day.
Sigh
Oh, and Zan. She is 'bout as close as I have to a good friend and someone I can talk to.
I'm not big on spontanaeity myself. I have to have a plan in place before I do anything...
You can talk to me, darlin. Want my email addy(s)? My phone number? My home address? Seriously, I mean it.
Hey, I have an idea. I just found out that I have to be in town Friday night for some stupid dramatic reason...how about I come in a little early and take you to dinner? Boy toy can come too but it looks at this point like he might not be welcome. We can go somewhere cheap, whatever you like. Let me know.
Fuck it, I'm going camping, by myself, at the river for the weekend.
If I'm not back by Wednesday.
Well, I was probably raped murdered and thrown into the river.
Jesus, I gotta get out of this mind set and it ain't working for me.
Treat yourself.
Grab some sushi, do the camping and read a good book. Sounds like you just need a get-a-way to think and reassess some things.
Anyway, it's hard to find real good friends anymore. They are out there though. You just have to shift through the crap to find them.
I know where you got that little pill :p
Sorry your having as bad a day as I am an entire life at this point. I hope you find the knowledge and calmness to deal with each issue one at a time..they will overwhelm you if you look at them all at once.
The boytoy will get over it..don't worry about him..he just wants to pout and probably loves the fact that you kept trying to reach him dear woman..
You know it's bad when you start referring to yourself in the 3rd person.
Why don't you move here to St. Charles? Bourbon chicken sandwiches await!
mmmm. i have been in that mood myself lately. which is weird for me, usually i am a happy camper...
"it's all temporary" doesn't make it better. but it might give you some hope....
peace for you is my prayer.
Well, I am finally back home & although it is sad to read of your state of affairs - I applaud your ability to capsulate it in such a funny ass hilarious way. I love that description of the stand off. Funny stuff.
Alice Starting a new life is a lot harder than it first seems but it can be done. You got so much going for you and if you really want change - postive change look deep down in your heart find what will make you happy in life then go for it! Last year for me was one that had its ups and downs just as i got through it so can you! After all you got so much more going for you and if you are looking for a road trip try - Pittsburgh, I'll save you a seat at Dees
I need that pill!! Can you score me some? Hee hee!
Hey- how ya doing?
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